Judging

What is it with the world today.

Why is it that whenever we, as human beings, see something that we don't understand, we either
A) Destroy it
Or
B) Deny it

It's like we can't help putting people down if we don't understand/like them. I mean honestly has it worked out in the past? I.E. Slavery, the holocaust, etc. One would have thought that by know the world would have gotten over doing such petty things. But noooo here we are again. Judging and oppressing people! This time its different. Not only are we judging and oppressing people, but we are saying that we're doing it all in the lords name! Now don't get me wrong, I do believe in god, but I'm not going to be the one to go around and say oh god hates you because your gay! (yes this post is about gay rights, if you have a problem, you can calmly take it up with my imaginary secretary, Ida) Anyway, there are people in the world who dislike other people because of how they want to life there lives. To that I say ok! If you want to live your life judging other people then ok, have fun. But the moment you take it into your hands to speak for an entire religion by saying oh god hates you because your gay, then thats when i start to take offense. Honestly, what gives you the right to sit there and say that. Are you god? No! Their are all sorts of stories of how generous Jesus is. Curing sickness, feeding the hungry, etc. What makes you think that all of a sudden he would just hate a group of people because of how they live their lives. Really people? Some people spend a majority of their time putting people down, but in reality they need to stop putting other people down, and start working on themselves.

The ever challenging pursuit of happiness

Let me start off with a question. When we were little we would all say oh I have a crush on you. Did we as children fully understand what that meant? I doubt that we did. As we got older, the way in which we could express our feelings expanded. No longer was it a simple crush that would pull two people together. Now it's something more profound. A deeper connection of sorts. The thing is, with the deeper connection, comes harder choices. In a way you can say that as a younger child we did not have the same amount of emotional needs as we do now. We did not need to be comforted in the same way, we did not need the close connection or the feeling of having someone else beside us. But at the same time, we did. We just did not realize it. Back then, it was so much easier to make friends, to form a "crush" for another person. And we were better for it. It wasn't as much stress and it was healthy. I don't think I'm making a lot of sense in this post but who cares. It's my thoughts. Anyway what I'm getting at is, I miss those times and the stress free environment that came with it.

Vent to former "best friend"

Recently I've decided to make some changes in my life. Some of them were a direct result of the events that happened between me and my quote unquote bestfriend. It's really funny how people can betray you after you have helped them through so much. This is the letter that I wrote to my bestfriend. I know the grammar and spelling is atrocious but you'll live.



Even tho u supposed to be my best-friending u still do me dirty like that. It's not even about the fact that Andrew told Jerah. It's about the fact that you told Andrew something that was an extremely closely guarded secret. Something that I haven't told anybody. You go around and expect that saying sorry will make forgive you. Like you didn't do something huge. Like you didn't betray my trust. You got upset with Andrew because of what he told Debbie but at the same time you are one of the most hypocritical people I know. You talk about me trusting you. Me not lying to you. Maybe the reason I lie to you is because I can't trust you with the truth. You might think this is a game you might even be smiling right now. I really couldn't care less. You think that it's not really a big deal that andrew told Jerah. But it's a lot bigger than you think. Not only does Jerah hate me at the moment, he's probably going to tell other people. People who I don't think I will be capable of facing. Not to mention he might blow up my spot on Facebook. Which then in turn will get to my father and other friends. In the past when you've done this to me it was just what ever. I forgave you but I never forgot what you did to me. Me! The one who has done so much for you. The one who has been there for you even when I got in trouble for it. The one who would and has, stopped doing whatever he was doing at the time to go get you when you ran away. The one who was there for you the other night trying to fix the problems that you had created for yourself. I know you never asked me to do those things for you, but I did. Not because its fun, but because I thought of you as my best friend. My sister even. Now I don't even know who you are. Yeah you told Andrew a long time ago, but It is because of me trusting you that the events of today happened. The way I look at it is this. You best friend is supposed to be their for you through thick and thin. No matter what happens. Whether it be a fight with your husband, your boyfriend or your family. I know I've been there for you, but can you say the same for me?


It's funny because of the way she acted after. It was like we were never friends in the first place, and she didn't care that the person who had been through so much with her just dropped out of her life. It got me wondering though, where we ever friends to began with?

Prep School Life.

Ahh. There are many things I can talk to you about today. I could make note of the fact that thanksgiving is almost upon us. How about how I woke up at five this morning to write a three page essay by seven. Or about how I'm so tired that I can't even keep my eyes open. Maybe ill just combine all three and talk about my amazing all boys school! (I hope you caught the sarcasm). Ill start off with this. I love my school there are so many good things that comes of going to a prep school. In prep schools you get a chance to make better connections with the kids of the future. You get a better chance to get into a good college. You become more active, you get experience with dealing with other people in a non destructive way. In my opinion most of the kids of the world that will make the future are going to prep schools. We get more vacation and you learn how to be a better person. Not to mention that in comparison to the education of public schools we are learning at an advanced rate. A normal class here is like an honors class at public school. Also the class sizes are smaller. The student faculty ratio is like 6-1 so you learn more. And it matures you and prepares you for college. AT the same time Prep school can be really hard on you. You don't get as much sleep as you normally did. I mean They run you hard. You're always doing something. From the classes at eight in the morning to the sport practices every day after school. Eventually it gets tiring. Not to mention the all boys. If you look at it it seems horrible. Always being surrounded by boys. No girls. AT ALL. With the few exceptions of teachers kids. If you really look at it though. its not that bad. Having all the guys around. You form a sort of brotherhood between all of them. and dispute the fact that you want to kill them at times, you know that you will talk to them even after graduation. Its the same at what ever prep school you go to. Your always form a sort of everlasting friendship. I have nothing more to write so I'm done. :P have a great day! 

I'm Right and You're Wrong.

People piss me off. It's impossible to please everybody. Recently I decided not to do. Sport because last year when I did the sport I messed up my knee. Now when I make the "surprising" decision of not doing the sport this year, everybody is in an uproar. "Oh why are you so scared to do the sport!" Or "You're so un-athletic!" Why is it that "we" as human beings choose to take the answer that will satisfy our own desires, and not the answer that might be the correct one. And I'm saying we because I know that as a person I do this at times to. The thing is, do we as a people understand that this is part of what is destroying us. We sit on our thrones made up of what we want to believe, screw what anybody else thinks, screw their opinions. I'm going to leave you with this. How many time have you done something or aid something that represents the quote. "If I don't think it's important than it must not be important." - Unknown
You might not have said it in your thoughts. You may not have even uttered the words out loud. But have your actions represented the quote. Have you done something that might have made you or other people around you think, oh he doesn't care about my opinions. Because as we all know, actions speak louder than words!