I am tired

I'm tired of attempting to live up to the expectations of five different people. I do one thing right, I disappoint someone else. Their is absolutely no winning. And it's exhausting. My head is full of so much useless crap. I am constantly thinking about how I should do things, or even if I should do things. Granted, sometimes I do things for myself just because I need that sometimes. It's like they, my family, want me to never do things for myself. Go to music, go to gymnastics, basketball, singing, church, rock climbing, horseback riding, violin, piano, guitar, France, Egypt, China, Hawaii, Greece, etc. I mean it's not that I don't deeply appreciate all the things that they have "forced me to do", it's just that when do I get time to go out and just stay out! For the longest time I wasn't allowed to go to the movies by myself. I was sheltered. I still am a little bit. Thank god it got better. Part of me understands that some of the decisions that I have made in the past have been extremely stupid. But at the same time, the past is the past. Their is nothing I can do to change the past. The only thing I can work on is changing the future. But that's not the point. The point is, that I have so many adults in my life and they all expect me to deliver different things, and I feel like it's starting to take its tole on me.